everything has changed, but some things stay the same

i got a new job.  moved to a new (old) city.  things changed quickly.  how quickly?

i've gotten accustomed to the 40 hour work weeks which i have never done before in my life.  i'm in a routine of working out immediately after work.  i enjoy coming home and relaxing and now cruising around online all day long.  i appreciate the weekend much more as well.  things have changed.  i have grown up.  but something has stayed the same.

my jealousy.  living at home with my parents, not going out, not being 'involved' kinda of released me of that angry green monster.  it felt good.  coming back here though, it has reemerged!  i have always been the jealous type.  jealous of people's bf's, of their cars, of their jobs, of their houses, of their hair, etc... i need a twelve step program to get over it!

step one.  limit yourself from social media's.  not completely.  but don't check them excessively.  don't live vicariously through other's facebook pages

step two.  build friendships.  rather than automatically imagining someone as my husband.  think of them as a friend first.

step three.  work on insecurities.  whether it's physically or emotionally, fix them!

step four.  feel comfortable in your own clothes.  i judge myself too much with what i wear.

step five.  fix those things that keep you up at night.  finances, boys, drama, work.  don't let it eat at you. no one wants wrinkles.

step six.  date!  go out on dates with no expectations.  have fun

step seven.  venture out.  finally feeling comfortable with yourself, go out and have fun.

step eight.   make connections.  at work.  at play.  be open and confident

step nine.  do something you haven't done before!  be risky, adventurous.  it'll open you up.  no i don't mean i'm going to go out and bottom.

step ten.  weed out the bad ones.  by now, meeting new people and going out more, you have certainly found some bad eggs.  get rid of them

step eleven.  find out what brings you most joy.  and do it.  if it's staying in more, then stay in more.  if you like being around friends, then do it.

step twelve.  notice yourself.  probably walking taller now, smiling more.  notice it.