Ok, so as I have mentioned early, I have horrible luck. I have even worse luck when it comes to guys and dating. I have only had two boyfriends and both last 3 months. Both happened in 2006 and both ended with me getting dumped. I've had numerous interests since then and yet no luck landing a good one. I could literally write a 5 page blog about this subject, but I'll just humor you with my bad experiences from this year.
It all began with whom I'll call Mr. Perfect (kinda like Mr. Big from sex and the city.) He had EVERYTHING going for him, well not everything, but damn near everything. He was gorgeous, muscular, funny, sweet, kind, and to top it off, he is going to be making a lot of money in the near future with his career. We found each other on a website (not a hookup website) and chatted for a couple months. I finally built up the courage to ask him to lunch and he surprisingly said YES! Well at our lunch, he was making eye contact, being his perfect self then tells me he's moving away for an assistantship in 3 days. Yeah in 3 days...
Well we actually kept in touch for a bit after he moved and made plans for me to come visit him in February. Well February came and I asked about our plans and he revealed to me that he met someone online and he was flying in Valentine's day weekend to visit. After Valentine's day weekend he promptly had to tell me he was in love and they've been happy ever since. Strike one for 2010.
The second guy who came along we'll call Hottie McTottie. I will not reveal too much information about him personally cause he is in a pretty well known traveling show and we met up when he was in town here. Here's a tid bit about me though, I fall way too quickly, with everyone. Well we did meet on a hookup site, which I don't usually do, but this guy was beyond gorgeous. So we texted and then one night he wanted to me to come over after his show. So as I'm walking out the door to go hang out with him, I get a text that says "hey, i have lube but no condoms ;)" I take some with me just in case. Well of course I get there and he offers to put in a movie and then rub my back so I know we were going to have sex eventually that night, and we did.
Now here's the thing, the sex wasn't that great. For being a hot, athletic, performer, he was kinda bad in bed. But it didn't matter, the fact I banged this hottie was good enough for me. Then after I came and I'm still in him he looks me in the eye's and says, "this wasn't just a hook up, I didn't think you'd be this sweet and awesome." Right there, fell for the guy. The rest of the time he was there he treated me so well; bought me tickets to his play, took me to dinner, took me to a cast party, kissed me goodnight...but no more sex, and for good reason. HE HAD A BOYFRIEND!
Now this is where you'll judge me, but one morning after a night of cuddling, he was in the shower and his phone beeped with a text and I looked down to see what it was and yes, I went through his text messages. I never do this and I don't know what came over me, but I did it. His boy was sending him "I love you" and "I miss you so much" messages. I felt horrilbe. So I calmly left and he shortly left town after that. He wanted me to visit him in the next city but warned me "we can't do what we did last time, I kinda started dating a castmate..." Strike two for me in 2010...
Now here's the doozy. Guy #3 this year was mr. future husband. This guy had added me on myspace like 5 years ago and actually kept in touch all this time. This guy was soooo adorable and had the perfect smile. So finally this past March after my Hottie McTottie, I saw him online and said to him "hey, we've been friends online for like 5 years and we haven't met yet." He promptly replied with "well let's fix that." So the time came after some texting and deciding when we were both free that I drove myself down to where he was and we spent an awesome evening walking around the mall, having dinner, chatting over drinks, then him inviting me to his place to hang out more. Now at this point I thought it was just going to end up being a hookup so I decided to go home with him. We got there and watching a movie, cuddled and held hands for a while. Then I offered to drive myself back home since it was late. He refused to let me leave so I stayed with him. The night quickly turned into a cute date to hot hot, messing around. The messing around led to both of us professing how much we liked each other already, which led to me coming back that weekend to hang out.
The time between us hanging out was what got me. I would get texts from him throughout the day exclaiming how cute i was and how bad he wanted to see me. One in particular stands out which he sent me one night saying "is it disgusting that I can't wait to see you again." Which made my heart melt. The next time we hung out solidified me falling hard for this guy. We talked about what we were going to do in the future together, where we want to travel together, everything but what we wanted to name our kids. Now I know that seems really fast, but we both said "I can't believe how good this feels this soon."
I left his place the next morning on cloud nine and he started classes again that monday. I heard less from him since he was busy yet still got cute texts from him. The next weekend we were to hang out but he cancelled on me because he forgot some plans he made. I was weary of that and you should always trust your gut because the next day was the last I ever heard from him. I got a text that said "Happy Easter, cutie." To which I responded "thanks, i miss ya!" That was the end. No contact from him, no response, nothing. I WAS DEVASTATED. I still am a little. This guy was my guy. He was perfect to me and I wanted to marry him! I recently found out he is dating someone for real now and it still stings to think about him. Strike 3 for me in 2010.
Guy number four we'll call Mr. Good Sex. Hopefully by his nickname you'll realize what our relationship was about. I met him while hanging out with Mr. Future Husband and decided to hang out with him after about 2 weeks of no word from Mr. Future Husband. Well Mr. Good Sex was in awesome shape and fun to be around. We had dinner, drinks, then back to his place for a movie. Yes, yes, i know that watching a movie is code word for sex, but I still hold out hope that one time I can actually "watch a movie" with a guy ;) So we started the movie and immediately started making out. This lead to three rounds of hot sex which I will never forget. We complimented each other so well in bed. He a bottom, I a top. He likes it rough, I like it rough. He lasted a long time, I lasted a long time. You see where this is going... This went on for about 3 weeks and I finally said we needed to stop if we were only going to do this. I knew he was moving away this summer anyways so I didn't want to get attached.
I actually didn't allow myself to get attached because I was still head over heals for Mr. Future Husband even though he was not talking to me anymore. We became friends after we stopped having sex and hung out often, then one night I was feeling extra horny and decided to drop him a text. I didn't get the response I expected because he had always took up my offers for sex. I sent "hey, lets go three rounds tonight ;)" with him responding "haha, i'm kinda actually dating someone now, sorry." Sorry? So I became upset obviously and told him I was disappointed and we got in a huge fight about everything really. Point being, this wasn't the worst guy of the year, but the sex was damn damn good. Strike number 4 for 2010...
So through my trials and tribulations, I sit here writing this to get my thoughts out. I think about Mr. Future Husband every fifteen seconds still. The thought of him having moved on makes my stomach sick still. I sometimes don't know what to do to get over this one but hopefully soon a cure will come around. This is just a tidbit of my dating/guy history. I will write the novel that will include all of them at one point, but on here, I'll prolly just mention the ones that stick out to me.
As of now I'm on a guy hiatus. We'll see how this goes ;)
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